Our loved ones give us signals from heaven all the time if we pay attention. Both of my parents have given me numerous signs since they transitioned from this world to heaven. The signs are very distinct and specific to our relationship and connect to what made them happy who they were in this realm. Usually, they will show the sign twice so that you understand it was really them. In my case, I have no questions about these signs as I can also see spirits. Yes, I am fully awake when my loved ones, angels or other guides have visited me.

In love

My Dad went to be with the Lord December 11, 2022. His funeral was December 14 right at the cemetery where my mom is buried. It was a beautiful day, not to cold. Being a proud navy veteran, he wanted navy men there to do the flag ceremony and play taps. Well, right after taps a redheaded woodpecker was heard chirping by my younger sister. This is significant as my dad was a redhead and fed the birds every day, even rescued a baby robin nursing it back to health. As we drove back to our house, we noticed the neighbors were putting a new roof on their house. We thought it funny they were doing it that day as my dad was a roofer for extra income and during layoffs from the steel mill. Before my dad passed during a brief illness hundreds of starlings were in our back yard. I had never seen this many birds all together in our backyard ever before; I grew up in this house, 57 years, my whole life spent living or visiting my parents at our family home. Just as my dad passed, while my older sister and I were in the hospital with him and my younger sister on facetime in Toronto, a flock of starlings flew right over her head. We couldn’t believe it. My Dad loved the birds and all the woodland creatures in our yard. “Chippie the chipmunk” as he called him, let him hand feed him. So, it’s not surprising my dad gave us signs through the birds. I believe the starlings I saw before my dad fully transitioned; was a sign he was ready to go.

The next morning, I opened the window and what do you think I saw? A redheaded woodpecker eating suet from the feeder my dad had in our backyard. I laughed! I got it Dad, two times with the redheaded woodpecker! Our loved ones are funny with their signs.

Around midnight after the funeral, I was alone in our house. I turned on EWTN. The Eternal Word Network. I watched this network often. A series was on I had never seen before. A group of military veterans were traveling by motorcycle around the country. Just as I turned the show on, the group arrived at a large cigar store out west. Why is this a sign from my dad and so significant. My dad was a navy veteran and a huge cigar smoker. He was a non-practicing Jew and said he was agnostic. But he knew I watched EWTN with my mom and on my own often. So, what better way to reach me and let me know he is happy and doing great in heaven. I thought, what are the chances of me turning this show on tonight right when these men are entering a cigar store! My dad smoked cigars every day and loved them. The name of the show is Long Road Home with Bear Woznick ~ To discover true masculine spirituality, a ragtag group of strangers embarks on a motorcycle ride across the nation, escaping their daily lives to contemplate their destiny as Jesus did. https://www.ewtn.com/tv/shows/long-ride-home-with-bear-woznick  Now my dad was not a motorcycle rider, nor did he believe Jesus was God, but this is how he wanted to reach me. I believe he wanted me to know he was with God in heaven even though he had been unsure when he was in a body on this earth plane. As I mentioned before, our loved ones reach us through our own daily lives and do it in an extremely specific personal way. As these men sat enjoying their cigars, they spoke of their time in the military. Some ideas they spoke about include: “Freedom is found through self-discipline”, “Military service helps develop virtue through laying down your life” “Prudence, fortitude and courage is developed” Being single and looking for a masculine God loving spiritual man, I also took this as a sign from my Dad for me to look for these qualities in a man.  

I’m going to skip forward a bit now with cigar signs and revisit a dream and visit from my Dad in another post.

As I mentioned my dad was a big cigar smoker. There were two humidors still filled with cigars after he passed in the basement. He always said to us “Every time you smell cigar smoke, you will think of me.” Well, I don’t need cigar smoke to think of my dad. I think of him often because he was such a great dad and I love him. I chose to clean the basement first in our house as throwing away things helped me to not be sad. I didn’t have to decide whether to keep things. It was obvious if something was trash down there. My Dad’s work bench hadn’t been cleaned in years. There were layers of tools, nails, gadgets, sockets, fishing gear, rusted razor blades, drill bits etc. etc. One day as I was digging through, I found an old ash tray with actual cigar ashes in it buried underneath piles of stuff. I started laughing! “Seriously Dad!” Those ashes were from many years ago! This photo is after I had cleaned the area up a bit.

A neighbor who used to babysit us and who came to the funeral wanted to bring us nut roll a week or so after Dad passed. There was always a nut roll thing in our neighborhood. My dad only liked one style created by a neighbor who lived across the street. If my mom didn’t make that style, we all heard about it.  This neighbor lived next door and her mom always brought us homemade baked goods. So, she wanted to bring us nut roll remembering how my parents had looked out for her mom in her older years. On the way over to our house, she said she smelled cigar smoke in her car and could not figure out where it was coming from! Another neighbor thought we had lit up cigars in the backyard one night because she smelled cigars two doors down. I told her no we never lit cigars! Talk about smoke signals from heaven. Then, this past week, friends invited me to speak at a faith and freedom event at a church in upstate NY. After the event, the Pastor and I were talking, I mentioned these signs I get from my loved ones all the time. I told him about the cigar smoke signs from my dad. Well, Pastor Rich said he was flying home the day before the event and had smelled cigar smoke on the plane. He could not understand how or why he would be smelling it. He said it was not constant like it would be had it been on a person’s clothes. He smelled it and then it went away. We remarked, maybe my dad knew we would be meeting and was just there to say hi and wanted us to know that these signs are in fact real. If I had not told Pastor Rich about my dad’s love of cigars and the signs, he would not have told me about his experience. Perhaps these signs are meant to help us to develop more faith in God and know without question that our loved ones are always around us rooting for us. I know, for sure, my parents are happy together in heaven and they both have given me signs. More about my mom’s specific signs in another post and one they both orchestrated. Until then, keep praying, acknowledge the signs and more will appear. Happy Father’s Day. I love you, Dad. “Love and kisses”

always with a cigar

During a beautiful day on the north shore of Long Island a friend and I spoke about our dreams, manifesting, Jesus, God, and the signs we receive from our heavenly guides. For me these signs are distinct and personal. My parents give me signs, information comes to me after praying and asking God for guidance, wisdom, and discernment. While relaxing at Cold Spring Harbor State Park watching the geese protect their 4 off-spring, I said, I’m probably going to need a bathroom soon. I also remarked, I can’t believe there are no bathrooms in this park. I saw a small gas station across the street and told my friend I may need to go there or the small store near it. He said they usually give people a hard time but maybe if you let them know it’s an emergency, they may relax their rules. Being it wasn’t quite an emergency at that moment, I laid down on the blanket to stretch and listen to my friend’s guitar playing. As I’m lying there my friend says, “the angels are truly with you today”. “I said what do you mean?” Just as I look up, two men are carting in two new porta-johns to the park! We both start laughing and exclaiming “wow” “no way” “now that is quick manifesting”. To me that was definitely a sign from our heavenly guides, anything is possible, that was not a coincidence, keep going for your dreams, the guides are super funny and love when you acknowledge their help. Oh, and for the first time in my life, I used a clean porta-john 😄

Cold Spring Harbor

About two months ago I hosted the 5 Archangels for the second time. The ritual has been going around the internet via friends for a while now. Its quite a lovely ritual where you invite Michael, Raphael, Gabriel, Metatron and Uriel into your home for 5 days. Well this time when they arrived I was quite stressed about a few things in my life but as soon as they arrived I felt as if hands were on my center, as if to calm me. While they were in my apartment I said prayers and asked them to follow me to work. But the most wonderful things happened after they left. As part of the ritual you write on a piece of paper 3 wishes- 1 for your family 1 for the universe and 1 for yourself then you burn the paper and send it off into the ethers. Well, since I’m searching for new job opportunities, I focused on that. But the funny thing that happened is the opportunities came to me from the most unusual places. People found me through a website that I had posted a picture and resume on many years ago at least 5 years ago. I ended up having the most wonderful audition for a fabulous job as a guest host on QVC for a skin care product. Other agents contacted me out of the blue and I auditioned for TV shows and all sorts of things. The opportunities I thought I would get never came so I took it as some kind of a sign. Perhaps there’s a different way to end up spending a lot of time on the beach in the tropics….hmmm we’ll see…

I also attended another gong meditation…boy do I love these meditations…so powerful…so soothing at the same time. http://www.sacredsoundtribe.com/Gatherings.html  If you’re in NYC check it out.

I have even been visited again by a boyfriend who past on to the spirit world a few years ago…he’s come to me in spirit a few times now…it seems all of my spiritual work is bringing me closer to the spirit world in general…it seems he wants me to know I’m not alone, that he’s helping me and to be patient…that’s all I can surmise from his visits but it sure is nice to know I’m developing my abilities.

Easter was lovely a beautiful service at St Malachy’s in the theater district…so many prayers were made and a very sweet prayer for “The Entertainers who touch so many” then off to assist my friend and Japanese Doctor of Holistic medicine Dr Kazuko with getting the word out about a very interesting Holistic Health Conference being held in Cuba June 4-11 2014. here’s the info https://www.facebook.com/events/256059637913220/



With a new year just beginning, it seems to me most people are afraid to live their deepest desire, their dreams. Sometimes its because of life circumstances and sometimes its because they believe others or I guess they forget who they are….

I was listening to Wayne Dyer today and he said be willing to die while you are alive. It struck a cord with me because I feel as though this has happened. I feel as though I died and I’m birthing into something else the third part of my life the last phase as I see it. The first almost 50 years were spent mostly in show biz in some fashion. I figure the next 25 years or so I would like to be living on the beach and working in events planning for part of it and part of it I’d like to have some books under my belt… written, published and enjoyed. I kept feeling it was sad that I felt dead but today I felt that perhaps it was something to celebrate as if birthing a new idea, a new life, a beautiful flower. Or I am remembering my true nature and living it. The past is the past so creating a new me has been at times daunting but I keep seeing myself waking up to the waves of the ocean and wearing sundresses walking the beach everyday not believing that I achieved the dream. Then I did a Chopra meditation “Who am I?” He said “I am my deepest desire” hmmmm well then I am a dreamer, a creator and I hope an inspiration to others to live their dreams. After all what is life if we don’t have dreams…my whole life has been about going for my dreams, collecting moments where you are so in the moment that you are the moment. I’m looking to collect more of those moments this year instead of watching myself in a moment. I want to wake up thinking I set this intention in motion and I achieved it because it was my deepest desire. Setting in motion….from this NYC rooftop to New Years eve 2014 I will be doing this same pose on a beautiful beach in the Caribbean working, dreaming and playing with a flow of prosperity with which I have divinely aligned.



So, finally my first new resume was sent out to an island retreat in order to set my next dream in motion…to live and work in paradise on a tropical Caribbean Island. The picture above is of Mustique; now this island is paradise. Its strange to feel like a different person than the person I have known all of these years. I guess these things change with time. I can see myself smiling and walking with a buoyancy in my step to greet guests visiting a paradise island. In my mind, I’m thinking, aren’t I lucky, I actually live here. No more NYC subways, dirt, noise and crowds. Over the years traveling to beautiful places particularly to beaches, I have wondered… how is it to live in paradise all of the time? Finally I’m ready to just live and breathe. I’ll help others to live and breathe during their visit and I’ll wake up smiling … so today I send to the universe, God, all of my spirit guides…please direct me to my divine paradise the next phase of my human life where I can use the skills you have given me and help others live paradise even if just for a week. In the spirit of Thanksgiving…thank you for giving me the guts to try and the guts to dream big.

A dear friend gave me a most wonderful book a couple of months ago right before I took a little trip to St Croix. I was needing major downtime from NYC and from life in general. I needed to collect my thoughts and start manifesting my next venture in life. So “The Complete Writings of Florence Scovel Shinn” came into my realm at the most perfect time. Why of course it did, the universe and God knew I needed to practice all of the ideas intentions and subconscious shifting. I would say immediately I was shown examples of the principles working. There I was sitting on a beautiful beach right outside my hotel room with the Caribbean breezes blowing, palm trees swaying watching the waves rolling in and never wanting any of it to end. I was addicted. I fell asleep early and awoke at 6am every morning not being able to wait to see the ocean and hear the waves. It was as if I was taking some kind of medicine but definitely a holistic medicine and I certainly couldn’t get enough. I never tired of the view; I felt what living in the now feels like. With this view, warmth, breeze, how could I tire of such beauty and peacefulness. IMG_0807The main principal I’m working on is prosperity. So the phone rings for work while I’m on the beach. The casting director says the director of a Miley Cirus music video is interested in me can I send more photos. Well, I’m in the Caribbean and won’t be home for the shoot in time. So I thought wow, there’s something to this. “I have wonderful work, in a wonderful way, I give wonderful service, for wonderful pay!” I started using an image that Florence suggested….I imagined my purse was over flowing with cash,  20 dollar bills falling out, $100 dollar bills falling out, checks and it just kept filling up. She said you have to test your faith by doing something physical. So I decided to go have lunch at a fancy resort I wanted to check out. The Buccaneer was a cab ride away and I figured I could spend the day there, get another cab to the airport and then while in San Juan for a layover, I’d get another cab to Isla Verde for dinner. I definitely spent money I was afraid to spend but much to my surprise, I got 7 days straight of work when I returned to NY and friends needed to stay in my apt as well helping me to recoup all of the money I spent on my trip. I also found it interesting that Florence spoke of practicing with the smaller examples first. I’ve certainly been practicing with the smaller miracles for awhile now and in the past I was doing it without realizing it. Now the metaphysical work was part of my every day. I say one or many of these phrases in order to shift my subconscious. It would take some work to change the old broken records found in the subconscious. I am so grateful my friend gave me this wonderful book. It’s a huge blessing. With expectancy, I’m looking forward to writing about a big example of this work.

Last night I dreamed all night of living and working on one of two islands a private island in  the Xumas called Leaf Cay in the Bahamas or Grand Cayman. I haven’t been to either but I’ve been watching Island Hunters and International House Hunters on HGTV which puts the intentions into my consciousness, subconscious and helps me to manifest this kind of lifestyle. So I am playing the game of life. I give faith in God “My supply comes from God and big happy financial surprises come to me, under grace, in perfect ways”


I went to a gong meditation this past Friday to set an intention for the newmoon. I didnt know what to expect but a friend recommended it. Emily Horowitz and Lucy Child in NYC hold the meditation and play the gongs, and such and sing too. It was absolutely beautiful. The gongs resonate through your soul. At first it was hard to quiet my mind from the nagging thoughts. But I went in and out of being able to meditate and thinking of troubles. When I could get in the gap, I managed to feel God.The beauty, the love are powerful and it brings tears to my eyes.  I just kept saying oh dear Lord, oh dear Lord…. and this little sentence kept running through my mind… it seemed to run through my stream of consciousness. The gong sounds were so comforting and I could have lied there all night within the gongs and such. Some of the Gongs were so loud but not loud to startle you , they felt powerful, like a powerful presence; I say it was God from within, in my heart. As it was, an hour and a half flew by. They asked us to set an intention and then let it go for the newmoon. Well at this moment its more money and a place on the beach to live. It all seems possible within the gongs and also the infinite power of possibility.

 I’m also doing another Chopra 21day meditation challenge https://chopracentermeditation.com/program. With all of these tools I hope to be guided to my next step in living in the warmth of the Caribbean.

 A Channeler I know sends a message from the Archangel Michael every Monday. This particular message really resonated with me because I have always been someone who goes beyond myself to attain things…pushes so very hard. Id like to achieve this….Diana sent from Michael http://www.dianamuenzchen.com

 “The maximum growth can be attained by minimum effort. Keep looking for the direction your soul wishes to take you and follow it. God Bless You.”

Hmmm…wouldn’t that be a newfangled thing to do. I shall try this.

Thank you Gong Ladies, God, Michael and all of my guides for answers come everyday.

Porto Fino, a magical place I visited, some time ago.


Through this blog, I’d like to explore What is Love?, continue to develop my spiritual knowledge, strength, center, clarity, inner buddha, connection to God, angels and my spirit guides.

What is love? runs through my mind. I think there are many types of love. But  themes come to mind …Love is truth, it endures, its magical, it’s why we are here as spiritual beings borrowing human flesh, a body, to grow as spirits on the earth plane for a short while and then go back to spirit.

Recently,  after summer solstice the longest day of the year during the height of the ‘supermoon’ when the moon was at its fullest and closest to the earth for the year during the early hours of Sunday morning around 1:30 am or 2am I experienced the strongest feeling and sense of love I have ever felt. I awoke for no apparent reason got up from bed and sat on the floor in the middle of my bedroom. I was vibrating, I felt the presence of God’s love radiating through my body and imparting an inner knowledge that this all-encompassing energy loved me and walked with me always, always walked with me no matter what. I knew that what I was currently doing in life was not what I wanted to do anymore. It was so clear. I was managing a foreign recording artist and had just spent almost a year of my life producing his first US tour. It was a huge challenge and what I really needed to know was could I do it? Could I do something almost impossible. Well the answer was yes. I did it with the help of my guides and God. Every time I ran into a road block, I asked  God and my spirit guides for help and I always got an answer or a new way to approach things and a door would open. But, as I sat on the floor, I knew I did not have to prove anything, I did not have to lead such a difficult life, and I did not have to have my dreams attached to anyone or anything.   I did not want my life to be so difficult, I didn’t want to feel as uncomfortable in my own skin as I had become. I was used to working with the utmost professionals since I was very young who knew how lucky anyone was to get a chance to be paid to perform anywhere. I was around grateful people who had a family spirit for the theater and a work ethic like no other. My ultimate dream has been and is to live on the beach. I would like to be around the crazy pace of the city and the Type A energy only when I needed a dose of it. So why did I choose a now seemingly round about way to get to the beach? I guess the dream of a condo or small home seemed so far out of my reach. But why? Why was I able to create a tour for a no name foreign artist but not find a way to get my dream home on the beach. I love to write and always have, sharing my experiences and stories comes natural for me….so now I finally begin a blog…finally…just doing something so natural, so natural like walking or dancing for me, sharing a story, an experience or an inspiring quote from a favorite guru.

I’m touched by this pure love I felt during the ‘supermoon’,vibrating, as if sitting on the Buddha’s little lotus flower speaking my truth. I don’t want to manage this artist. It’s not right for me. It was so clear. I want to live on the beach in harmony. I also said to my friend, who was with me not really understanding what was going on….”I need to be alone so that I can convene with God and my spirit guides.” “The spirits don’t come to me unless I am alone, I need to sit with them. It’s very important.” I have always liked being alone when I was a child, I never felt lonely, I played alone sometimes even though I had two sisters and many friends, I was thinking, dreaming, and making arts and crafts for hours. It was meditative and restorative. Instinctually, I just did this. Now in this day and age we say one should take 10-15 minutes a day to meditate, take time to do nothing etc. Well, I think a much longer time is far better for the soul.

So, now my spiritual journey to the beach begins….  Supermoon